"fell into, another hole again, it's like i'm sleepwalking"

things happening lately:

• not feeling any better mood-wise. on average i'm genuinely happy around an hour a day 
• it makes me sad that i can't get the strumming pattern right for "Sleepwalking." 
• they're gonna inject me. again. in my mouth. with more syringes. oh joy. 
• i haven't taken my medicine in ages, currently internally sick 
• eyes not working right
• tired 24/7
• got held back in history yesterday so the teacher could ask why i was "being reclusive." 

NONE OF YOUR FUCKING BUSINESS
eurgh.

i'm done. 

i wanna fall in a hole somewhere and just sleep until MCR get back together. 

which means never so.

yeah. 

goodbye.